I am really sorry to hear all this regarding you and Icepick15. Getting old can be a series of ups and downs but it sounds like you guys are getting a lot of downs. Prayers for both of you and your families.
I share your sentiment, Moe. I just looked at Users Online...two. You and me.
LOL, well you were never (as I can remember) a prolific poster to begin with, but I did so look forward to them, you and I appeared to have a lot in common, thanks for your reply.

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You're absolutely right. I don't post much, but I do read a lot...when the posts are there. I usually check this and other forums several times a day.
Doctors made me retire back in 2015 due to back issues. I stayed on sick leave for nine months arguing with doctors to let me go back to work. They said I could no longer be a street cop (was on the job for 40 years). Neurosurgeon said I wasn't a good candidate for surgery. I can't even mow my own lawn. Sometimes I can stand up kinda straight, most days not quite. Docs said I could work a desk job. I replied that there weren't any desk jobs open, and the department wasn't going to invent one just so I could drink coffee at the PD all day and draw a pay check. I was going to run out of sick leave eventually, and accrued leave applied to my retirement, so I pulled the plug.
Neurosurgeon said that if I take a fall and jar my back, I might not be able to get up. That pretty much precludes me going out in the woods. If I trip over a root or step in a gopher hole, in about two years some hunter will find my skeleton....and a free gun.
Well, I was about to disregard medical advice and take a shot at hitting the woods. Nope. Right about the time I was almost ready to break bad, my wife had a series of mini-strokes. She got rehab and after some months regained her independence. The strokes did play hell with her balance somewhat though. One night (actually 0130 in the morning) she lost her balance and fell. We were in the den talking, and I saw her lose her balance. I was sitting in my easy chair and she was standing about eight feet from me. My back and knees prevented me from getting up fast enough to catch her. I saw her fall on her right hip, and I heard it break. Ambulance to hospital. Surgery that afternoon. Week long hospital stay. Weeks in live-in rehab facility. Months of out patient physical therapy. Therapist released her one day. Walked out and said to me that she wasn't getting any better, and she wasn't going to get any better, so she was being released. At that time, she could walk with a walker if I held her balance with a gait belt. Now, she has regressed. She can't walk without a LOT of assistance...not even with a walker. No balance at all. I have to hold her up for her to walk (very slowly). Help her stand up. Get her in and out of the tub. You know...the whole thing. Hurts the hell out of my back.
So now, now I take care of the wife 24/7. I only leave the house for doctor appointments and grocery shopping; and, if she wants take-out from a local restaurant. Tonight? Well, there's a roast in the crock pot as I type.
All the above to explain my situation a little and why I miss the activity on here. (And I'm bored.) Also, it's very uncharacteristic of me to post so much personal information online. Not being able to go anywhere, I've been living vicariously from posts on this forum and others. That and Facebook, and YouTube videos. I have very little actual face-to-face contact with other human beings.
One thing. Please do not misconstrue the above as

ing or me looking for a pity party. I'm not looking for sympathy. That's just the situation. It is what it is. She's my wife, and it's my job to take care of her. Thing that bothers me is, if she outlives me, there's nobody to take care of her. That really scares the

out of me.
So, how's your day going?

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First off, I'm sorry to hear of your troubles my friend, truly, I will keep you and yours in my prayers, In all honesty my year so far pretty much mirrors yours, wife's been in the hospital twice with heart attacks , had an angioplasty to open up a blocked artery, my oldest son has been battling for his life in ICU for three weeks with complications from a liver transplant, I've been in and out of testing for A-fib, besides my PAD, type 2 sugar, glaucoma, COPD, emphysema, and an arterial abdominal aneurysm, and bad knees, outside of that I really hate getting old.

This friggin' lock down isn't helping my disposition one little bit, I'd mention the pandemic and the political BS going on but don't want to upset a couple of our more sensitive members.
On a good note I'm still walking upright, still shooting a little Trap, and playing with my air guns in the back yard, except for my oldest boy in the hospital all our seven children, their wives and hubbies, our 10 grandkids and half dozen great grand children (maybe more, I have trouble keeping track) are doing great, no ones in our clan has been affected by the Chinese flu, all the kids are still working and the bills are being paid, I guess I have nothing to complain about, when asked how I'm doing my typical reply is "It could be worse", ain't that the truth.
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Moe and Stan---
Thank both of y'all for your prayers and well wishes. You're right, Moe...it could be worse. We're still on top of the grass.
My bills are getting paid, too. Plus, house and cars are paid for. Unfortunate thing is, wife and I had planned to travel some when we retired. Now that we can afford it, it's not feasible. It could be better, but like you said, it could be a LOT worse.
Moe, when I'm asked how I'm doing, my usual (almost always) reply is "Not too bad for an old fat guy."