Sorry for your loss my friend, I haven't been paying much attention here lately, But I do know your pain, having had and lost quite a few great dogs over my lifetime it's not hard to remember the feeling of loss, funny thing I realized about losing a special pet, the loss seems to cut deeper and last longer than when you loose a human friend or family member, I've never lost a child (hope I never will), but I think the pain of the loss might be close to that when you loose a pet, especially one that is so devoted a so full of affection for you.
Again, sympathies my friend, all I can offer is this, eventually the pain and sadness will fade, but the memories are forever.